Dear Alyx…

If I could go back to October of 2019, I would say so many things to you.

I love you.

You are the most important person in the world to me.

You’re beautiful to me.

You’re sexy to me.

I know I’m not the easiest guy to get along with, but I want to share my life with you.

You are the most important person in the world to me.

I trust you more than I trust anyone else in the world.

But in the end, nothing I would have said would have made a difference, because, you are who you are.

I wanted to share my life with you. I sacrificed for you, I literally reorganized my entire life for you, and you just didn’t care. You weren’t the only reason I changed my career, but you were the main reason! And you decided that I wasn’t good enough, and you needed to sleep with someone else without my consent, and trash me to my face.

YOU GAVE UP! You gave up on our relationship, and then made up a story in your head to justify mistreating me!

You gave up on our relationship, just like you gave up on your relationship with Appy, just like you gave up on college, and just like you gave up on your Dad before he died!

You give up on people, that’s what you do, and that’s why you’ll never be happy.

I’m still so angry at you, but I know the truth, that you will die sad, and alone, because you give up on people, and dying sad and alone is what you deserve.